5/6/08

Dreams of running

Lately I have been dreaming of running. I'm not running from anything or even towards anything in particular. I am running for the shear enjoyment of running. Anyone who knows anything about me probably knows that I am not a runner...I am not even a fast walker. But I wake with a desire to run and enjoy it.

At the onset of adulthood I began a never ending struggle with my weight. About 3 years ago I lost 100lbs. I have, slowly, crept right back to where I was. Running right now seems like a near impossible feat. In fact, walking fast right now has become tough...

Last night I dreamt that after I got Andrew off to school I threw on a pair of sweats and hit the trails. I ran with ease, no heavy breathing, no gasping for air, no cramps, I just loved it - every minute of it. Soon after getting Andrew on the bus reality hit me - it will not be easy, it will not be fun, I will not glide and things will jiggle (much to my dismay).

I don't like things that are not easy. I don't like things that I am not good at. I am a brat - plain and simple. Rather than work at it until I get better, I stomp my foot, fuss and whine (even if only in my head) and wait for something to make it easier.

This fall, after climbing Mount Major with a team raising money for breast cancer, I was talking to a "co-worker" about how tough it was. He explained that he use to run it twice a day...Then, this afternoon, I read Jessi's blog announcing her plan to run the Manchester Marathon in November.

What makes them different from me? I am good at a number of things, I work hard, I want to succeed...I want to run. I want to love running and know that I am doing good things for my body, soul and mind.

So...where do I start?

4 comments:

Nicki said...

heard a lot of good things about this... couch to 5k in 2months!

http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml

maybe we both can jiggle through it ;)

Jessi said...

I will help you in whatever way I can. Do you want my training schedule? I had a professional make one up for me... I can have them do it for the both of you based on you, and what you want to accomplish...

Erica, if you want to run, run. You can do it. If I can, you can.

Cray and Bickford Family said...

So, what do you think, Nicki? What do we want to accomplish?

Cray and Bickford Family said...

I figure that by following Nicki's plan I should be running for 30 minutes by mid July...just in time to be sweating enough during each run to lose twice the amount of weight :)